Saturday, January 2, 2010

More Donor IVF Ramblings...


So its January 2, and I cannot quite contain my excitement for the upcoming months. Yesterday I answered some questions the lawyer needed in order to draft the contract, and today I firmed up an appointment for S to see the psychologist. I should have these 2 things completed within a couple of weeks. Then we have everything in place to go forward with the procedure.

S is to go to the clinic again on Tuesday. Turns out she didn't really have her "true" period - it was a fake one brought on by the drugs the doc gave her to induce a period. Kindof defeats the purpose if you ask me, but what do I know? Sort of a wasted appointment for her, and an extra expense for us, but I guess you gotta roll with the punches.

S will also have her psych eval on Thursday. Do you remember the movie "The Hand That Rocks The Cradle?" It was a suspense-thriller in the early 90's when that was all you got...all these movies with real people, living normal lives...until that one fateful day when things started to unravel... I think those movies are 100% responsible for our over-the-top paranoia... I don't know about you but "Fatal Attraction" taught me you NEVER EVER have an affair. Not if you don't want bunny stew for supper. I guess it's better to be safe than sorry, but I'm certain the doctor will size S up in about one minute and see that she is nothing more than plain old sugar n' spice.

Happy sigh....could 5 years of struggling to have a family finally happen for us this year? It's mind boggling, exciting and utterly terrifying all at the same time. I can't deny that I will still be in complete and utter shock if it works, despite the high statistics for donor egg IVF's. Do you know what it might feel like to struggle to get pregnant for 5 years, only to finally see that positive test?

I think it will be - hands down - the most exciting moment of my life.

2 comments:

Julie said...

Sending you good thoughts for 2010... see you soon. Looking forward to it!
xoxo

Tabitha said...

Praying for you!