Thursday, October 6, 2011

It's all been about this moment...




It's Friday night, October 6th, and our babies will be born tomorrow. How nuts is that??? This whole crazy blog, if you've been reading, has been about the struggle to have a family, whatever way possible, and here we are (albeit still in denial) about to be parents. Us! Parents!! The word of the year is "craaaazy."

I can't believe the overwhelming excitement from all of our friends and family - you are all truly amazing people. Someone said to me today, "what does it feel like to know that people all over Canada, the US and Europe are cheering for you?" I mean WOW! Yeah...it feels absolutely amazing! It truly does...and I don't think I can adequately thank you for just how much you've cared, and how kind your emails and posts have been. You never gave up on us, you never got tired of hearing the broken record.

And without my little world of support would we be here? I know without a doubt that I had a goal and I wasn't going to stop until I had a baby...but I can't deny there were dark times when the hope was fading rapidly... and that's when you would swoop in and not take no for an answer.

How do I feel right now? Physically...well unfortunately I'm PMSing which doesn't help the emotional roller coaster I'm on. I slept terribly last night because I either have a bad cold, or terrible allergies. I have that awful exhausted run down feeling and today I felt like I hit a brick wall. I got the shivers and had to wrap myself in a blanket and lie down. lololol!! This is NOT how I want to feel on the eve of never sleeping again (which I believe every.single.person has said). I was going to write "what every.single.person has "joked about"", but I don't think anyone is really joking about it, despite the laughs that go with that statement! I think it's more of a "oh just you wait little miss do whatever you want, cook all day with a glass of wine and sleep until 10" laugh.

Emotionally...it is still (the other word of the year) "surreal" that we are collecting two babies tomorrow. 9am Nickole will have a C-section and we will welcome our babies into the world. I'm excited, and nervous, and scared. But beyond everything, I just want to get to the holding our babies part. The part where they place them in your arms and it hits you in the back of your throat...

We have waited so long for these babies to come into our lives, and now here they are.

I just can't wait to bring you home.

5 comments:

Kirsten, Chris, Jacob, Sarah & Evan said...

So excited for you! Enjoy those babies! Boys, girls, both? Can't wait to see!!

Adam and Julia said...

oh wow!!!!!! how exciting. I remember the night before the babies were born. No sleep. to anxious. Just enjoy your last moments together. Tomorrow life forever changes. Can't wait to see those precious angels. Good luck momma!!!! I am thinking one of each!!

Wishin4bb said...

I am so excited for you guys!!! Good luck and I hope you continue to blog about parenthood. I'll be thinking of you at 9am!!!

Brenda said...

Wow, amazing that it is HERE. And yes, those people who "joked" you were NEVER get sleep again, were joking. You will, in about 2 years or so! I hope you begin to feel better so that you will be in the best of shape to meet your babies! I can't wait to hear all about it!!

ks said...

So exciting! I can't believe it's finally here! You are such a warrior my friend! Enjoy every precious newborn minute. And don't feel bad if you get frustrated, even us who struggled are allowed to be normal parents! LOL! Wishing everyone a happy and healthy delivery!
Much Love!