When I sat down to write this post, my initial thought was that 2008 was a waste of time because here we are a year later and we are no closer to getting a baby. But it doesn't take long for me these days to see how wrong I am. I got lots of sleep - there's something I won't get back after kids. I went to San Francisco, Florida and Kelowna...all fun trips (although difficult at times for obvious reasons, but still adventuresome). We continued to be proactive with respect to adoption and our upcoming fertility treatments... This is all a step in the right direction. Without this past year, we wouldn't be where we are today...allow me to explain...
I've had a bit of a revelation lately...and I'm not an idiot, I know there will come a time in the near future where I will feel sorry for myself again, but for now I am feeling very very lucky. There are really, so so many things to be thankful for...all this pouting and "woe is me" just ain't my thing. How can I do that when there are kids starving in the world, kids being abused by their very own parents, people struggling to find a warm place to sleep, lonely people, misunderstood people, victimized people, people with cancer, children with cancer... How can I fucking complain?? I can't - that's the point. And if YOU are none of the above mentioned things then you'd better start counting your blessings too.
Do I sounds harsh? Good. We all get a little forgetful of how good things are for us. Sit back and think about how your life REALLY is - compare it to the rest of the world and you'll quickly understand. This is the new me. Sure, Chris and I have gone through a few rough years, but we are stronger for it. I have learned so much about things like integrity, pity (and how much I hate it), and pride.
I feel stronger than ever - how bout you?
2 days ago
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I really like this post. Brings a lot of things back into perspective, thank you for a very balanced and honest post.
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